The past few years......

 Life.....

It changes......

Things NEVER stay the same.....

Some things happen that you've never even dreamed possible......

And yet, life, it's the greatest thing you're given and are expected to take care of no matter what happens....

So here are my changes, my life and my next 25 years of hopes and dreams.....

This whole blog is really just a way for me to put it out there, to look back and enjoy the memories and read my words, good and bad. A memoir of sorts. Just life. A good life. My life.

My first blog was Life In Italy! I started this blog back in 2009 when we moved to Italy and away from all our family back in the United States. I wanted them to see our lives and to be able to tell them all about it in one place and the "blog" was the hot thing back then. I loved to write/type (I still do) and it really made my heart happy to show the family what we had been up to. So check out our life in Italy. It was truly amazing and I can't wait to go back.

My last blog was What A Life It Is and it included our life AFTER Italy up until 2017. It's all about the going on's of my little family of 5 and my amazing trip to Australia with my Mom. Life just moves so fast that documenting these things was something I wanted to keep doing. My life changed drastically in 2017. When my marriage was starting to fall apart and I had no idea how to manage anything. I got a job and things got worse.

In 2018 my husband and I separated and we were eventually divorced in 2021. Life has a way of changing things up. A way of throwing things at you that you never knew you were capable of. I moved out of the house, I didn't want his mother to be without a home and the kids deserved to have him in the house where they had always known him to be. I knew I could survive on my own and provide for my babies the way I needed to. I also knew his life would fall apart if I would have "taken him for everything" like people told me to do. I didn't want his life to fall apart. I had worked hard to help make him everything he is today and it would have killed me to see it all go down the drain. So, I moved out. I worked 5 jobs at once. I was a postal carrier, an office cleaner, a school photographer, a worker at the Climbing Place and a parts delivery driver. I have no idea how I made it work being a mom but I did what I had to do to make ends meet. I paid all my bills and some of his. I kept the kids' spirits up even though life was down. Eventually everything was going to be ok.

In 2021 I moved to the beach! I applied for a postal job in Kure Beach, and I got it. I couldn't believe it when it happened and I'm here to tell you my best life was lived right there in Wilmington where I saw the beach every day when I went to work. My heart was happy. My middle daughter lived with me; my son lived with me for a bit and then with his dad. My oldest was off to college in Vermont. Oh, how life was perfect. I had a great boyfriend and the perfect kitty and my built in best friends with my kids all now grown. I miss my life there; I miss everything about it. I want it all back so much.

But LIFE.......

Life right now is living in my sister's basement, having a job that I thought was going to be great but ended up being not what I was told at all, needing to get a 2nd job just to be able to pay the bills. I really love being by the family. It's been great spending time with my sister and brother-in-law. It's been so good seeing everyone else and getting to know my siblings all over again. I love being close to my mom and stepdad. I've missed my family.

But is this where I'm supposed to be right now????

So, this blog will touch on things I've done in the past few years, the things I'm doing now and the promises of my future. I'm going to bring you along through a journey of my lifetime. Follow if you'd like or skim through and just enjoy my pictures. There is chance you'll learn a few things and maybe even laugh a little. So come on, it'll be a ride......



~Till next time~

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